eLimentary Frens

yeah..you guessed it..
Christmas eve is the worst day to shop..
it was reali crowded here,there and all oyer the place..
seems like evryone's rushin for last minute presents..lol..

niwaes,hang out wif my buddies..
it was fun..
we chat a lot n i reali miss them so much..
it's about time i give space for myself to chill..
i need a break badly..

Just Frens

truth hurts..i agree..

he said it..he treats me like a sister and a fren..
thats all..
well,i certainly knew it from the start..
he was just using me when he feels bored..
he always say nice stuff but he doesn't mean it..
he doesn't appreciate me:(

i just don't understand..
why must he call me 'darling' 3 times??
i don like ppl to say stuff and they don mean it..
i mean,i want ppl to show they love me not by sayin it??
true love exists??
i so don't noe??

niwae,wats life without its ups and downs??
maybe,just maybe i need some space to breathe..
for now,i don wan to talk about you..
i just want to pamper myself to something nice..

love myself like im never in love..

darLing

why are you doing this to me??

you make me:
~dream about you..
~smile when i got ur msg..
~laugh like there's no tmr..
~feel so loved..

best of all,you text:
~hi morning darling..hehe
and
~i miss you..

it tingles my heart so much..
can we ever be together darling..lol..
make my wish come true:)

Open House

whee..
juz went to republic's openhouse..
with my lovely fab frens..
well,guess wat..got a thumbdrive and more goodie bags..
arent they juz generous??

niwae,my purpose of going there was to see the course they offer..
im soo into biomedics but they don offer attachments..
the truth is,i don wana go poly but college..LoL..

it was raining heavily..we were ol soaked n hungry..
well,drop off to the mall and had lunch at 2pm..
i had chicken bbq..Sumptious:)
had blisters ol over my foot..
ouch..so bought new pair of sandals..

then made our way to town..wanted to see her[my fren] work..
sad case,wat a tough job selling ties huh..
then off i went home...

haiz..so damn tired..
i missing you more every single day..

im Soo in Lurve

im so over the moon..
well,he apologised and was ashamed of the incident..
n he was bloody mad at his fren..lol
i knew it he wasn tat kind of guy..
oohh,thank God for tat:)

and juz now at 1am..we text each other..
he said im cute..coz mayb im too concern over him..'blush'
n he stil wanted me to wake him up for work..
then,we make a deal..
i wake him up,he treat me..

then he doze off,wantin me to sleep together wif him..[as in sleep same time]
he left with the last text at 1.44am sayin:

1.dream about me k and
2.miz u too! :)

im so in love with you..
dreamin bout u is not enuf..
juz make it come true ok:)

Shock Of My Life

i cant believe it..
well,today around 1 am,i was stil facing the comp..
n im suppose to wake him up for work at 6am..

So i lied to him n said that i wana sleep..
to my horror,i receive a msg at 1.15am frm him ..

him: sweetheart i'l cal u ltr tonite n we masturbate..

i was like..Shock!!i mean firstly he never cals me sweetheart..n if he wished me good nite already,he cant be textin me again wif this nonsense..
i had two stuff tat makes me worried you see:

1.He was messaging other women but accidently sent it to me..[tat wil surely blow me up]
2.He's tat kind of guy,so into sex and ol.,[hopefully not]

but i believe he is not tat kind of guy..then i received anothe 2 more msg at 1.23..

him:if u receive the following nonsentical msg,don reply..my fren sent wrongly..hehe

i mean wats so funny..he made my heart jump out of my mouth n i was on the verge of crying..
n what is he doing at this late hour wif his fren wen he is suppose to be sleeping!!
i was kind enuf to wake him up for werk..wat the f***..

niwae,i couldn sleep tat well,n i din wake him up..i overslept..lol
n i was expectin sum apology but it didnt happen till now..
i so dunno..but then,i believe him..
i gues,it's one of the test he n i must go thru..
mayb we'll work it out,mayb not..

i dunno..but i stil want you..
till the truth is out..
secrets between him n me is mine..

New Frens Treasured

todae,went out with a fren of mine..
seriously,its weird coz we may be in the same sch but she's not my clique of frens..
n coz my damn frens busted me,i decided to make new ones..lol

niwae,it was reali damn fun..we laff,joked,talk,bitch about,shared secrets and had lunch..
it was so amazing as to how much we get to accomplish in juz a day..
thank you so muc 4 making my day great..
i owe u loads..lol

n i made two other new frens..both frm diff sch..
it was fun coz we juz chat online n wolla,we became frens..
chat here and ther,n it was damn stoopid lah coz they make me feel soo alive..
lol..
new frens are treasured you see..
sometimes frens doesn't last so u need to always make new ones..
n ur ol buddy might not always be ther 4 u wen u need them..
hehe..

Thank God

you wont believe it..
he came bac into my life again..

how it happen??
wel,i confess sayin i mis him a lot..
n he missed me too..
we text then we chat online..
oh my God..
i cant stop tinkin bout you..
you make me soo happy..

n i want to see you badly lah..
read my mind guy..read it n ask me out..
im soo into you:)

Frens my Ass!

im reali sad..
u see,i've started working among my frens and it's not fair..
i have to sacrifise my time..

i mean i get the cash..they get to enjoy life n im not in it..
they haf so much fun without me..
but i reali need money coz i want to get what i want..
haiz,money cant reali buy everything can they??

if they're reali my frens,they wud not brag about how much fun they had at theme parks and all..i mean,i don mind them havin fun but they're making me feel left out..

seriously,dn reali noe wat happen to my frens??
wher they ol haf gone??
i miz havin FUN with them!!

i need u

cant stop tinkin bout you..
every time i try to forget,i just cant..
i dream about u..ol the time

i mis u badly..i wana see u..i wana feel u..i wana hear ur voice..
can i cal u?can i meet u?can i text u?

please..call me..bring me out..funny thing is,do u rmb me?
i mean,we never chat,never see each other,never even laff together..
we just text..
how will we noe each other if we never meet up..

i longed for u..n i only get to see ur pic..it melts my heart away..do u noe tat?
can we meet juz once..i juz want to see u for the first n last time..
tats ol im askin for..i want my eyes to believe wat im seeing..the truth.

ur smile?ur features?especially ur eyes?
i've changed..im no longer tat cute little gal..
i juz want u to noe tat i mis u badly..
infact,i love u..

Cant stop Smiling..

OMG..

well,i haf been workin as a secretary n its a tiring job indeed..but then,i need money so that i can shop til i drop..haiz..niwae,went for lunch..

i decided to pack a meal at a fast food restaurant to bring up to the office..
while waitin 4 my turn to order,i was tinkin of wat to buy..
then the manager ask wat i wanted:

me: bandito student meal and...
mng:eay here take away?
me:take away
mng:ok,eat here..

wth man..i haven finish my sentence n he din even hear wat i said..suddenly one of the worker attend to me..n he was like smiling at me..so i smiled at him..its curtosy u see..

him:yes,can i help you?
me:blah..blah..
him:wat sauce do u want?
me:blah..blah..

n seriously,he was smiling ol the way talkin to me..like so sweet lah..then he din even blink n he was starin at me ol the time..even wen handlin the money..haha..omg,like soo cute..its like givin him his desired wish..lol

btw,he forgot my bandito so i went bac ther..

me:sorry,i tink u forgot my bandito..
him:oh yes.here it is..

n guess wat??wen he saw me again,he couldn stop smilin..haha..infact,he felt pleased..lol..well,he made my day..i mean haha..so funny lah..mayb in a few days time i'll go there again 2 see him smile..

got a Job!

wee..got a job as a secretary..

starting this monday..i just cant wait..well,been searching for tons of jobs and wee,cant believe it..
i want money..

ok,im gettin a bit crazy..lol..
well,i always am..
hehe..

AweSome Prom..

woohoo..

well,prom was a blast..
cant reali 4get those happy moments..
i took a pic wif my best guy fren..n i got a hug frm him..haha..
sad thing,din get to take pic wif HIM..
u noe,tis guy wana take a pic wif me badly..
but he had to went off early..
'till i meet u again k..'

niwae,my frens and i were like dancin on the floor..it was utterly fab..
i mean we're 16 so its like havin a taste of clubbin..
no alcohol..tats fine..
i mean if u look at how we were dancin,u mite b tinkin we're on drugs..kiddin..
seriously,i m gona go clubbin wen im 18..

anyway..the food was sumptious but dancin was way better..
i wished prom hadn't ended but fact is fact..
IT ENDED!!

waitin for more parties to come in the future..
Cheers:)

Crush

damn it..
sometimes wen u have crushes,it's meant to be a secret..
i mean u won't want ur crush to noe rite..

wat if he doesn like u..
rejected is fine but sometimes it wil make u stop tinkin bout him..
at least wen u're sad,u can tink about ur crush..the way he smiles..n it makes u happy..
it breaks ur heart u see if secrets are spread..

i made the biggest mistake ever..
i tol a stoopid fren of mine of my crush..
n tis idiot go spread it ard until he noes it..
i dn even noe how to face him..
n he seem pretty mad wen he noes i like him..

to stop matter further..
i confess..
not the truth..but i jus said the idiot was mad at me so made rumours..
He was relieved..

so there goes my crush..
Crush are meant to be Crushed rite??

EmO FreaK

i created tis poem out of boredom.

ouch..
can't take tis anymore
feel like killin myself like how i did b4
i sliced myself with a cookin knife
been left alone ol my life..

im sic,im crazy
don wana live anymor
feel like jumpin outside tat door

my heart breaks
into million pieces
cant describe those aweful feelings
im tired of cryin
thinkin of dying..

i wan to die
coz life has been unfair
no one was there
wen i fell frm the stairs

i cud see myself bleedin
enduring those pains
i had to suffer it ol til i go insane

don wana live,wana rest in peace
life without meanin
wats the use of living

even if i die
no soul will cry
for i never existed
isn't tat wat they wanted??

im dead,im dead
believe me i said
my burdens ol gone
ol burried alone..

a fren of mine

i SO don't understan her..

she has got a boyfren yet she stil go out wif other guys..then she gets jealous coz her bf text a gal who happens to be his best fren,her enemy..

i mean her bf is such a great guy n she's a total bitch..Goodness..
he understans her but he's juz sensitive..

sometimes i wonder why i'm her fren..i mean she makes fun of the guy i like and she even flirt wif some of them..she makes me damn jealous..n juz coz her bf text his best fren,she's makin suc a big fuss..i hope she change for the better and tat might happen if the guy leaves her..

Missing OuT

Major exams are over..Finally..can relax..

seriously,i tout after exams are over,i can do WHATEVER i want..but i was wrong..a teenager like me craved for freedom..wat do ya expect huh..

what do i want??
~leisure

but then again,i miss studyin..burnin the midnite oil..drinkin coffee to stay awake until wee hours..
i miss wearin the sch uniform.i miss my frens,the teachers naggin,the school and my band..

i even miss homework,detention n exams..i juz miss being busy!!!
I miss my teenage years!!!

haiz..Life has to go on right??
mayb when sch starts again,i'll be missin out the holidays..LoL

biTch

seriously,life hasn't been fair for my family and me..

juz downgraded our house..
downgraded our car..
downgraded our normal lifestyle..
and evrything else 4 the sake of my dad..
OL bocoz of one Fookin bitch..[actualy 3]

Can u believe it??my dad have 4 wives..
n we are always the one 2 sacrifice..i pity my mum A LOT..
n she stil don wana let dad go..
Sometimes i wonder??
y is life so cruel??
y do bad ppl always win??
y mus life b unfair??
y??

evry time i look at our family situation,i always cry,secretly..i dn wan ppl to noe how weak i am..
n juz now,went to court wif my mum..
that bitch has a case wif my dad n she wants OUR money.
Forgoodness sake,my mum haf 5 children n we downgraded our life to survive n she wants OUR money..not MY dad's!!!

wats wrong wif her??wats wrong wif that BITCH..
i don't even wana noe how many guys she slept wif but can she LEAVE my family alone..
Hasn't she no idea how many SINS she made??

i believe one day,she'll get her OWN punishment ..n may she LEARN from it..
For now,i juz want her to F#@! off frm my life..

a Loser Like You

This poem is dedicated to Him..

Few mths ago,u broke up
Few mths ltr,u git 2 noe sumbody
start wif 'm'
ends wif 'e'
also ur fren known as me

r u sic wif ur boring life???
u stil lurve her rite??
then get her bac
don sit ther n whine
making me ur punching bag

im tired of hearin
u pouring ol ur pain
it's ol the same
no end to the game

so move on dude,Get real!!
u mess uP ur life dn u mess up mine
i may b ur fren
bt i haf feelins too
don play wif my heart
im damn sic of YOU..

Fook Out..

Guys

i SO don understand guys..
they keep makin my life complicated..

wel,ard mid april,i got 2 noe a guy from a fren..
i mean seriously i had no intention to get serious wif the guy.n i wasn't in e mood 4 new frens..
wat do ya expec wen u're sittin 4 ur exams in 2 wks time..Ther's juz no time 4 fun..

anyway,im just bein stupid and i accept the offer of bein his frens..
it was ok at first.we text and text and text.i then realise i wasn't bein my real me and my phone bills shoot up.
so we chat and soon blah and blah,we got intact in juz 2 mts..to my disappointment,he suddenly changed.like he's not interested in me..

i like to stick by my own words..Tat is
'If ppl don wan 2 hang ard u anymor,leave them and find a new one'
the world isn't tat big but replacin one soul frm billions is easy especially wif internet..lol

anyway,juz 2 b sure,i tried to text him and that's ard mid june..Sadly,no reply..

and when i was on the verge to forget him,he step into my LIFE again..about early sept.
God,why is he doing this to me..

he sweet talk me and all..i juz cant take it u see..
Coz i felt like he was using me..textin me while he's bored and then dump me aside when he's havin fun..

i may b a gurl but i haf my own rights ok..im not an old cloth wher he can juz throw me away when he needs to..So guess wat??i tol him tat i don wan to talk to him until my exams are finally over..and that will be in 2 months time.i wanted to test him.See if he was loyal to me and willin 2 wait 4 me..

Months passed and i was right..He forgot about me.It's like he only text me once in a blue moon..HahHa,Guys...seriously,i tink he should get a grip of himself..and im gona make a poem for him after this post..

my dirty seCrets

well..
tis wil be a secret post made by me..
i din tel anyone tat i haf a blog..
i LIED..
i said i din haf a comp..
i din haf internet..
and im neva online..

i dn wan the truths to b out..
even if it's out,nobody wil eva noe hu i am especially my frens..

they mite b readin tis but they wil haf no idea it's me.

EscapeS

BLOODY DAMN TIRED..

here's the story ok..
i went to the theme park wif my mates..
basically it was an all gals outin..
had fun..as always:)

i went to the haunted house..not tat scary but my fren was like pulling my shirt..lol..
then we took the rainbow..not tat thrilling-.-
after tat took the 360 degrees thingy..
i tink tat was the best so far:)
lastly,took the spinning space ship or wateva it's called..

i paid 7 bucks but so not worthit..
coz had to wait atleast an hour for every ride..
but that's okay,coz i miss my frens a lot:)

till then,juz wana say i had a hell of a time..
thanks guys!!

celebrate

merry x'mas people:)