specially for you

i love you soo much sam..

i hope it doesn't sound too gay or what..
Aniway,i don't think you have a clue that this is my blog..
BUT SERIOUSLY..
i thought you were mad at me..about the other day remember??

and please stop saying nice things to me..
because..

1. i'm not sweet
2. i'm not beautiful
3. i'm not your dear
4. i'm not nice
5. i'm basically someone whom you can never fall in love with..

even if you are..you don't know me yet..not now and NOT in a million years..
we are completely statistically complicated people..
and i do like you but as a friend so don't shower me much love okay??

but thanks because you're the only guy who sees so much in me..
and i believe you'll get someone better:)

you make me mad

i soo hate you..
seriously i don't know whats the use of writing it here..'
but i feel better..
this blog of mine is suppose to be filled with joy and laughter but if you look at it now..
it's filled with hatred..
just look and read the previous post..
is it me or them??

and i just want to say that i hate you..
Allan Zachry O' Corell..
please get out of my life..
i begged you..

Get ouT oF my liFe

*sobs*

well..usually the beginning of a beautiful friendship always has an end to it..
and todae i declare her no longer my friend..
gee..tanx so much..
it was fun while it lasted..
sometimes i wonder who's the meaner one..
sometimes i wonder who deserves it..

you know..after todae,i no longer want to text you,speak to you,call you,chat with you..
just anything that has got to do wif you,COUNT me out!!
it's sad but i'm fine with it..
four years down the drain..haiz...

seriously..i feel so dumb..why was i your friend??i had i choice don't i??

i helped you out a lot..
i encouraged you..
i make you smile..
i speak up to you..
i cheered you up..
i listen to you ol the time..
i advised you..
i accompanied you..

but seriously..today you make me feel so useless..
i can now see what kind of person you are..
i just asked you to accompany me because i was feeling so lonely today.i wanted to talk to you and all you sent me was 'don disturb me!!im busy rite now'

then yesterday i wanted to tel you about some guys and you were like 'erm..i need to handle something so bye'

i only want you to pay a lil bit of attention to me..because i paid you your attention..
is tat too much to ask??

no matter how boring your stories is,i make an attempt to listen to it..
no matter how same your stories about guys is,i stil listen..

yet you don even wana hear what i wana say..and you don seem to like seeing me happy..
instead you criticised me..haf you any idea how hurt i was??
aniways..it's over now..

one more thing:
FUCK YOU!!
just dont step into my life anymore..
don't miss me coz i will forget you..

and hopefully i find some better friends..just not someone like you.

shush..

im so glad i got this blog..
since my fcukin frens are pretty much occupied,i just got
this bloody damn blog to share my stories with..
anyway,i met 3 new friends ytd..

well,two of them are from Turkey[one is called akif and another huseyin]
and another one is from India..[sam's the name]

aniwae..they're so funny..

akif is 19 and he wans sex wif me..sick rite..
then i told him im a virgin and my religion is strict..
so the only way he can fuck me is by marrying me..
and he said that he wana be my husband and wanted to marry me
coz he reali wanted to fuck me..
and at the same time be my sex teacher..lol
truth is,we don even noe each other..haha..

then huseyin who's 18,is another funny guy..
he got the same religion as me..
and he liked sex but stil a virgin..haha..
then he said he loved me..
wtf??we barely noe each other..
anyway,he ended his convo wif a kiss to me..
so cute..haha

lastly is sam who is 17..
i find him rather sweet..
keep saying im beautiful and ol..yeah rite..
he said i got the brains,the smile,the humour..
and if i join politics,i wil surely win..haha
soo sweet of him..
and he likes the way i tink..
then he tinks our next date is on thurs at yahoo..haha..
wth..

and i reali had fun..
these three kept saying im beautiful..haha..
they haven seen me yet..watever lah..
they're not funny just that i find them rather unrealistic..
don't you think so??

job interview

yey..
got a job interview tmr..
i hope i get the job..coz my current job gona end soon..lol
i need the money..
my clothes all ruined and summer's coming..weeeeeee..

niwaes..todae went out with atique..
lol..cool rite her name..used to tease her as antiques..
but watever it is..i love her name,soo unique..
funny,it rhymes..haha

btw,i mis her soo muc..
n thanks so muc for hearin me out..
had fun eatin the famous noodles..hehe..
u take care babe:)

jeaLousy

haiz..
thank GOD my blog is kept a secret..
i can freely bitch about her..
sometimes i don't even noe if the problem lies in me or the people ard me..

i so don't know wats her problem actuali..
i mean,she used to be my fren..the closest actuali..
but somehow recently,she's changed..
it's like she got so muc jealousy in her tat she kinda give me mean comments..
her sarcastic remarks ain't funny coz she say it as though she reali means it..

i don't hate her juz tat i don't like the new her..
it's like she has forgotten ol the gd deeds i've done for her..
she seems to appreciate new frens who juz recently helped her..
then wat does it make me??
i dn actuali ask her for anything..
i juz want her to make me feel appreciated coz i noe i helped her more than any new frens she made..haiz..

n why mus she be jealous of me??
-i don possess a gd body..i haf some flesh here and ther..
-i don haf a pretty face..
-ur skin is fairer then mine..
-u're thin..


why mus she be jealous of me??
-u're ol bones and not fully develop??[opps,being mean..]
-err i haf many frens..
-my nose is sharp and i have outstanding features..
-i can swin..
-im good in studies..
-i have a bubbly personality..

well..i noe im not a mean person but u leave me no choice..
i haf to say this because u hurt my feelings..
im on the verge of anger n u had to make me soo upset..

i don like the way u smile..my sis say ur smile is damn ugly..
it looks like someone with no teeth..n she tinks that our grandmother smile better..
lol..dn hate me for saying this coz i don hate you..
infact,i mis the old you..

the nerd kid who stil brightens my day wif her braces..

Openhouse

todae..
bored because nothing much to say..
well..met up wif high sch frens..
wasn't looking forward to it actuali:(

anyway,let me introduce them..
err..Afendi,armani,dna,yenny,fraly and hazel...
fend's and arman's from aust n they're frens of mine..
i like their accent..very cool and sexy..haha..

well,the openhouse was pretty boring actuali...
n i dn even feel like typing it down..
wil forget this day..
yawn..
zzz....
will be meeting granny later..she's cooking some sweden dishes..

i need a job

Damn it..
my current job right now is so sucky..
and i want a second job right now..
i dont care..

aniwae,got a call this morning but was wondering if i got the job or wat??
and that women on the other line like wat sey??
she talk like some shitty person..
opps..shud be more kinder i guess..

How eVry GaL shud be TreaTed..

To every guy that's said, "You're
beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy
to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives her flowers
and a card when she is sick or down.
To every guy who has given her flowers
just because thats how he rolls.
To every guy that said he would die
for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted
to do.
To every guy that cried in front of
her. ....
To every guy that she cried in front
of...
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with
meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's
sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no
reason at all.
To every guy who would give their
jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure
she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait
for her for hours just to see her for
ten minutes.....
To every guy that would give his seat
up...
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that
she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to
her.
To every guy that tried to show how
much he cared through every word and
every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this
could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her
dreams.
To every guy that would have done
anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her
when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her
car and opened the door.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is
happy even if you are not with her.

Love the beach

smiles people:)
thank you so much for bringin me out to the beach..
juz what i needed:)
a break close to nature..

anyway..i missed my elimentary frens more compared to high sch frens..
so 5 of us went to the beach..
me,amy,carl,ken,syaz..
funny though the combo..
n some cant make it but the outin was stil uberly fun..

erm..we cycled,took pics,had lunch and basically chill out by the rocky seashore..
carl n me crack some jokes..HAHA here..HAHA there..
then we fight..n i smack him..he smack me..
argh..so fun!!

after that..we went parkway..
they shop for books n stuff..n the store was havin some kind of offer..
lastly before headin home,we headed to Starbucks..
i got myself a chocolate chip cream..
yummy:)
well..that's how it is..

happy new year!

hey..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Whee..dec just ended which means january is up next..
soo..goodbye 2007 n helloo to 2008..

well,i hope this year would be a better year for me,my family,my frens n the people around me..
haiz..wel,the good memories will always be in my heart forever:)

since 2008 is here..
i haf new resolutions..tadah..

1.get into my desired college
2.do extremely wel for my studies
3.achieve the best for my new sch
4.make new frens
5.lose weight
6.clean my room
7.help my mum more
8.save money
9.smile more:)
10.don wana fight wif my siblings..
11.be a gynae
12.more open toward society n willing to accept changes..

well,that's all i guess..
ol the best to the futures endeavours:)