half-hearTed

Goodness..i'm so utterly shocked..
Not that shocked..but still a bit shocked..
i mean it is so hard to get virgin man nowadays..

J.S called me and we chat awhile..
and guess what,i couldn't meet him this friday..
got some plans to do..he was fine with it actually..
and then he talked about sex..
i call it sexual education..

he blobbed and blunder..and he said it..
he done it before..Numerous time..Yes,it's sex..
i haven't even met him yet..he scares me now..
and i feel like not meeting him..he can do anything do me..
you never know..
but i still want to meet him..
no harm being friends right??
but??

i feel so heart-broken..i mean i din't expect him to be that kind..
i thought he wasn't that type..
but i was wrong..and i don't have the rights to judge people..
i don't know..
i feel like crying but it's no use..

and the thing is,he's not the only man who's not a virgin..
there's so many out there..
but whatever it is..
i'm glad i'm a virgin and proud to be one:)