stupid world

i am so stupid..i know that it cannot happen..
i know that it will NEVER happen..
it was such a clear cut for me..
who was to blame??

at first,i played along with the game..i know it was impossible between us..
but i just carried on..hoping that one day he'll wake up from the fantasies..
soon,i fell into it..
i started believing about the possibilities..
and i know that it can never happen but i still go on..
i was such a stubborn bitch..
i didn't realise i was going the wrong way..
i started loving him..i began to crave for him..
what an idiot..

then,it ended just like that..
he realises that it WAS impossible between us..
he left,taking his heart away from mine..
'how can two people chat online and fall in love..'

but that's okay..i can pull this through ALONE..
now i'll be waitin for the sun to rise..
a new beginning..and out i go with a feeling of hope..

in a girl n guy head..

When you catch a girl
glancing at you,
she wants you to look
back and {{smile}} =)

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When a girl bumps into your arm
while walking with you
she wants
you to hold her hand

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When she wants a hug
she will just stand there

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When you break a girls heart
she still feels it when
you run into each other 3 years later

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When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through
her
mind

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When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply

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When a girl looks at you with eyes
full of
questions,
she is wondering *how long you will be
around*

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When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after
a
few seconds,
she is {{NOT}} at all fine

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When a girl stares at you,
SHE IS WONDERING WHY YOU ARE PLAYING
GAMES WITH HER ):

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When a girl lays her head on your
chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers
FOREVER

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When a girl says she can't live
without you,
she has made up her mind that YOU are
her future

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When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more
than that

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When a girl is mean to you after a
break-up
she wants you back, but shes
scared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever

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Guy Facts:


When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you

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When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you.

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When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

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When a guy says, "I'm fine." after a
few
minutes
he means it

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When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and
wonders if you do

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When your laying your head on a guy's
chest,
he has the world

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When a guy calls/texts/comments you
everyday,
he is in love

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When a (good) guy tells you he loves
you,
he means it

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When a guy says he can't live without
you,
he's with you till your done

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When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else

aww..sweet :]

Girl: do i ever cross in ur
mind?

Boy: no.

Girl: do u like me?

Boy: not really.

Girl: do u want me?

Boy: no.

Girl: would u cry if i left?

Boy: no.

Girl: would u live for me?

Boy: no.

Girl: would u do anything for me?

Boy: no.

Girl: choose-- me or ur life?

Boy: my life.

The girl runs away in shock and pain
and the boy runs after her
then says...

The reason u never cross in my mind is
because u're always on my mind..

The reason why i don't like u is
because i love u..

The reason why i don't want u is
because i need u..

The reason i wouldn't cry if u left is
because i would die if u left..

The reason i wouldn't live for u is
because i would die for u..

The reason why i'm not willing to do
anything for u is
because i would do everything for u..

and

The reason i choose my life is
because
YOU ARE MY LIFE..

it's so sweet man..i wish someone would say that to me..

he said that to me..

-n i think i had u in my mind wen i was thinking these words..
-i think u r smart enuf 2 know wot simplicity means?? rite ?
-simplicity not only means.....
being very simple in da way u dress(babe)........
the way u tlk.....n walk..
its all abt the heart n soul...
-n according 2 wot i think........
u r beautiful at ur heart as well as soul..

-my kind of girl is a girl.....who believes in herself......
her simplicity speaks it all......her attitude 2wards life is 1 thing wot matter's..
-beautyy n blah blah....its got nothn 2 do with love...love itself makes a person beautifull..
-u dont need 2 have gorgeous eyezzz....or sensuous lips.....
n marvellous features..m happy wid ur smiless

so all i wud end up saying is
-U R PERFECT......!!!
-i like u the way u r

compliCated

women..like me for instance..
are different in many ways but when it comes to love..
it might be a bit similar...
most are still confused about it and feeling kind of complicated..
just like me=)

you may hate a guy one moment but after that,it might be a different story..
like they say looks are important as first impression counts..
but soon,it's the charm that melts our heart..

i may be a teenager but i experience love too..
it is just that maybe it is not the right time for me yet..
i ain't a bitch..and i ain't a despo..
i prefer falling deeply with someone then just using him as pleasure..
im not inhuman..i don't toy with feelings..
and when the time is right,when the guy is the one i want to be with..
i will know it..

bgr can wait..just because you have a boyfriend does not mean you're mature..
that's wrong..but girls think of it this way..
and they thought the title 'girlfriend' means they can DO anything with him..
now that is stupid okay..

why waste your virginity on someone who uses you as pleasure..
TAKE NOTE:women have feelings and we're not toys!!

anyway,i really can't decide??
i hate Allan but i know how he feels towards me..
i like J.S but i can't seem to accept his past..
i think i'm in love with Iz but he got a gf already..
and and..the list is endless...

whatever it is..i just can't decide..
they might like me but i'm scared they won't accept me..
i'm more than just that..they don't know yet..
and 'that' refers to the real me..

help me!!

should i?

i am so confused..
i like him but i don't like him..
and i feel so bad for rejecting those dates..
should i date him??

my friends say i should but i don't know..
he sounds nice and fun..
i mean can he be trusted??
zack says that everyone has a dark side..
and going on dates does not necessary makes me his girlfriend..
so i should just go out with him..

haizzz.......
i can't decide??

half-hearTed

Goodness..i'm so utterly shocked..
Not that shocked..but still a bit shocked..
i mean it is so hard to get virgin man nowadays..

J.S called me and we chat awhile..
and guess what,i couldn't meet him this friday..
got some plans to do..he was fine with it actually..
and then he talked about sex..
i call it sexual education..

he blobbed and blunder..and he said it..
he done it before..Numerous time..Yes,it's sex..
i haven't even met him yet..he scares me now..
and i feel like not meeting him..he can do anything do me..
you never know..
but i still want to meet him..
no harm being friends right??
but??

i feel so heart-broken..i mean i din't expect him to be that kind..
i thought he wasn't that type..
but i was wrong..and i don't have the rights to judge people..
i don't know..
i feel like crying but it's no use..

and the thing is,he's not the only man who's not a virgin..
there's so many out there..
but whatever it is..
i'm glad i'm a virgin and proud to be one:)